lassroom. collect the response from students, then make your own response through your fluent expression, hold the tempo in the classroom, those were what i want to do. but i had to face the fact it’s hard for me. too embarrassing, right? in the beginning i can handle, after a while, i found my frustration. without experiences to deal with broken mind, i stood on the platform like a fool. it’s hard to ensure continuity, because you have to clear up the messed up mind unceasingly. after several round robin, i was almost beaten down, lost my tempo wholly.
“tongue plugged, face blushed, scalp tingled, direction messed”, anything worse? “calm down 、reset ……”, oh, god! a spectacular mental war was going on in my mind. finally, compromise with the fact that i am a green hand is the only choice, the capability made me down. but it’s an excuse taking capability for response, i know the truth, i hasn’t get ready then .how pity i was, and how pity my student were!
i regarded it as my savior, the school bells. but not truly, i can’t be saved from the blame of my conscience. i must show my appreciation to my students, thank for their tolerance、apprehension, and so on. but it’s hard for me to forget myself, i was not ready. that’s not only an embarrassing situation, it’s a shame. after then, in spite of the fact that i carry on my lecture better and better, the impression of bottom line show is always knocking as alarm bell when i stand on platforms.